Hello everyone,

I have been for the most part absent for sometime now and hopefully that is now coming to an end.

I have been in hiding and not wanting to address any difficulties I was having.

Suffering recurring exacerbations and now a bout of pleurisy has seriously floored me to the point where I lost most of my will to live. It didn’t help that I lost my young nephew on my birthday either.

My rock and love of my life has also been struggling and has been signed off sick with stress and exhaustion so you can see what I was dealing with.

I did get some good news in the form of a CT Scan which showed that the shadow they found over a year ago has finally gone. I greeted this good news with glee as one of the transplant co-ordinators had said that if that happened “I would get to meet the surgeon and be listed” before this. When I reminded them, I then got a rebuff saying that my Transplant Consultant will want to see me first. I feel betrayed and lied to but I am in no position to object. I just have to take it all without a whimper and hope that when I go, in just over a weeks time this will be implemented. I am so tired of repeating the same thing over and over and to feel there is no progress. I cannot help feel that it might be best to just forget the whole thing. At least then I wouldn’t have the stress or worry over it. I am sure some folk think I am just making the whole thing up. *sigh*

So…. Wednesday I was made a Grandma for the second time. Jacob Alex sped into the world at record speed and was home in time for tea. lol. I already love him and I havnt’ had a cuddle yet. Tomorrow is the big day when he and I are acquainted and I get to exercise my voice some, with nursery rhymes.

I got a new toy this morning.


It’s a nifty little number which lets me via Bluetooth wireless technology to pair my iPad with a speaker system. Listening to my tunes without having to tether my iPad to an electric current is now amazing. All those wires are now a thing of the past and the sound is excellent for something which is affordable and very girly pink. (they do other colours too) Hahaha.

I hope now that we are well into spring we get some good weather soon. I have a wedding to go to next week and I don’t want to miss it.

Be good.



2 responses to “Missing

  1. Sounds like a really tough time! So sorry for your loss a d all the other stuff that all seems to happen at once. Keep positive and have hope. Even all the concentrated darkness of the entire universe could never extinguish the flame of a single candle. Be well.

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